Book Titles: I laughed into mine

Book Title

At some point during the third or fourth revision I was searching the internet for music, just trying to relax an overstimulated mind and maybe find some inspiration. I was listening to Beatles songs that are somewhat rare, like demos and outtakes. I heard the book title in an interview with John Lennon and Paul McCartney, where the interviewer was asking them questions about youth culture, and what, if any good they thought they could bring to the youth of their era.

Many people try to be conscious about what’s important, and what, if any good they might do. We all think too much, and wouldn’t it be a lovely world if we could all settle our heads with more music and humor, and other good things. The original, working title for this book was ‘Stellar Gas’.

You can find the entire, very much worth the listen Lennon and McCartney interview on Youtube

This is an excerpt:

Interviewer: Let’s stick to the young people, and to the areas that you think are most fruitful to try to help in. I mean, again, I asked before where you thought young people were going and you said maybe there’ll be a reaction to what they have now. How does this relate to the real world, as you see it, to issues of war and peace and family and country?
John Lennon: All issues are relative. So it relates like that. It’s all just relative to each other. War… and vegetables… It’s all just relative, you know. So there’s relativity and absolute, and that’s how it relates.
Paul McCartney: That’s great Johnny.
Interviewer: That’s kind of hard though, for some people, to interpret you.
John Lennon: Well, if they can’t interpret it, maybe they will later, or come to their own conclusions, but that’s the way I think it is.

John Lennon working class hero onUS flag by Robert Run

Lennon was taken from us before he could become a U.S. citizen

 

War and Vegetables: A Chronicle of the Last Gas Station is Available

corporatism-rigged-economy-war-vegetables-Preface: The devastation left in the wake of corporatism in much of the world was a war zone Even in the US it seemed like a war zone. The rights of individuals, their properties, communities, and small businesses were under attack, not mere metaphor in some cases. Solutions, some so simple, were suppressed in favor of archaic, toxic, and inefficient technologies Politicians enabled these policies and the results, and they worked a TV like a dancer’s prop, feigning opposition There were so many of us, and so few of them. Somehow they made us feel powerless. Perhaps it was the weaponry the constant trauma of fear porn, and the fake food, all helped along by the too slowly dissipating apparitions of TV projection. Regardless, it was a con. The Millenials were next, with the Public Record in the palms of their hands. www.war&veggies.com

click the photo to go to a purchase page

My book is now in the Premium Catalogue at Smashwords, which means I can officially stop calling myself a Writer and start calling myself an Author… if I feel like it. It might be a little pretentious. You get the point though. I wrote a book, a long book. Seventy Two Thousand plus words.

Here’s a list of ways people all over the world can get my book. If they find clicking the link above to be too easy.

Kobo powers the ebook stores of multiple ebook retailers around the world. Simply by distributing to Kobo via Smashwords, your books may also reach WH Smith in the UK, FNAC in France and Portugal, Livraria Cultura in Brazil, Angus & Robertson Bookworld in Australia, Bookworld in Australia, Indigo in Canada, Collins in Australia, Feltrinelli in Italy, bol.com in the Netherlands, Paper Plus in New Zealand, Play in Great Britain, Rakuten in Japan, Buy.com (now Rakuten) in the US, PriceMinister in France, Crossword and WHSmith in India, Eason & Son, Ltd in Ireland, Mondadori in Italy, The Paper Plus Group in New Zealand, National Book Store in the Philippines, Pick ‘N Pay in South Africa, La Central in Spain, Dogan in Turkey, participating Booksellers Association Stores in the UK, and participating American Booksellers Association stores in the US, and Orbile in Mexico (Orbile is a partnership between two large Mexican book retailers, Porrúa and Gandhi).

Inktera operates retail site Inktera.com and powers multiple apps across iOS and Google Play including Athanatos, Book Bronco, Caffeine Nights, Cricket Books, Digital Pretium, Digital Turbine eBooks, EverAfter, IndieReader, Inktera Books, MediaRewards, Morgan Rice, Oasis eBooks, OneClique, TribBooks, Versent Books, and EverAfter (app for romance); and operates Android ebook store apps for Cricket Wireless and Asus.

Baker & Taylor operates Blio, an ebook store and also operates Axis360, a major supplier of ebook checkout systems to public libraries.

Gardners, also mentioned above, powers hundreds of small white label ebook stores; operates Hive.co.uk which powers ecommerce operations for hundreds of physical stores; operates Askews & Holts, a large supplier of ebooks to public libraries in the UK and other countries; and operates VLeBooks which powers ebook checkout systems for academic libraries.

are you a myth?

are you a myth?

Do you “believe” that you are a myth?

The Rending of the Veil

It’s not romantic.

Heading headlong into the teeth of this anticivilization at a time of apparent increasing rending of the veil.

It’s not like a mission, or a “calling” but all too often the feeling that one’s own mysticism and hope emerges to crush what is…

What is, is, after all.

So many peers, mentors and studies have packed away. They have “prepared”.

It’s the starkness of “alone” that draws the romance.

Again, we are stalwarts, we are the first immortals.

We do in fact have one another, we are not alone, physics won’t allow it, despite the delusion of “the collective” and the projection of “the one.”

There is the Universe in each cell; there is a sun alive in each snowflake at midnight.

Television, the local newspapers, lofting lazy, slow, turgid turd zeppelins at the twinkie addicted cabbage patch faces overwhelmed by the illusion of depth, awestruck by the spectacle.

Simultaneously, vast numbers divorce themselves from belief. They don’t necessarily know what’s real, but for certain they know what is -not-

Pulling, peeling, wrestling their barnacle selves from the ship, the battlestar, like small children discovering themselves again; rediscovering lost recesses long since thrashed, beaten and bruised by Public School; conformity, ostracization; Church; Television; Drugs.

The Pineal hood winked shut, blinks for the first time since vaccination; Fluoridation. Calcification reverses, it’s the veil, it rends, the divide widens, it’s not personal, certainly not political, hence the new Police State.

what the pineal glad really looks like.

what is

Waking up is never good for those who rule the sleep.

You took a nap after your energy drink, your bag of chips and cheesewiz, of course you did… the long slow infestation of cancer needs a moment. Not even that coca-cola can help you now.

We do love you, be clear about that, just because we do not wait for you to love yourselves before we make our moves does not mean you are not loved. We call to you, you hear it, you don’t know what it is. You fell open, it landed there, you threw it out the moving window with your MacDonald’s garbage.

Another may come along, you never know… I suppose.

Karma falls like a Light Brigade as long stretches of decompression integrate with post-deconstruction.

Deconstruct the language; subtract the inane politics and conjecture.

Nuggets of decompression filter their way down through the compost-peat culture…

Form the first sentence of your -LIFE-

I faced the hill and made my claim, my declaration; my command.

-So here is the point: Be a net Gain-

Anticivilization defines wealth as the accumulation of currency with the least possible effort.

“Something for nothing!” is the call of the Oprah rich, from behind the screen; the bubble, pin pop-ready; the screen, the appliance, applied to the smooth brain couch grooves.

“Because I didn’t ask to be born!” is the response from the other end of the plug, from the couch, from the waiting room, from the living room. The smell of French fries waft universally.

Creates nothing; vacuous realms; nothing real.

Real value is the creation and production of the most possible, using the least possible resource.

Exponential returns.

The chair caners; the recyclers; the small farmers; the hunters; the gatherers; the fishermen; the weavers; the wheelwrights. Much using little, not little using much. Not stimulation over edification. Real capital instead; value instead; Honesty instead.

“You have to create something”

These five words can save your life.

“I have to create something”

The truth that rings your heart like the bell.

“I have to create something”

Here is your Mantra, winking hoods.

“I have to create something”

No money down

Eyes, ears, wits; experience accumulated for that sky of cold suns at night, for the soft place, for a cache of hot and clean.

A summer for a firepit, all the chamomile and nettle with morning dew for a dry sump.

And the hill to boot; to shoe; to ski; to gather; for sweets, for medicine for the alter, sans altar.

The deepest honed arrow can’t provide this. Create something.

They call: “Something for nothing!”

Our response: “Something FROM nothing!”

Hands; eyes; mete; analyze, diagnose prescribe and implement; detail; finish.

It is value exchange; it is not a sentence, a deal, a plea; a desperation.

We don’t walk away from this.

We gather wind.

Weave the cloak

Manifest the mist

And again, the gem, the gorgeous gem Superior where I buried my face

In the roots

Into the banks

Where I left my salt

Where I recognized home

Who she is

Where I am

My future of breath

To hold this magic

Volitional Living Consciousness

Never for granted

Only ever grateful

Grandfather plucked from his place, like a feather.

Grandson lands… and leaves, softly, for the Net Gain.

Net Gain: That’s the point. Leave more than you took, you have that magic you neo-cortex. Rise to meet the beasts.

We sing across the divide, like waning whales across a sea. We call, we sing, we spin and dive and splash, it is in slow motion.

It’s there, on their sonar.

It sounds vaguely familiar; they do not recognize the song, barely the voice.

Their heart fell out, they picked it up, embalmed it with religion; with hope; sold it.

They hear us sing, they can’t place the sound, it’s on the tips of their tongues.

Christians kill with doctrine instead of simply following Jesus’ instructions

“For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? do not even the publicans do the same? And if you salute your brothers only, what do you more than others? do not even the publicans think they are special?” -Jesus 

(Publicans were the ultimate hated people in Jewish culture at that time, because the only job they could get was collecting taxes for the Romans, who were afraid to enter the militantly independent Jewish communities. Publicans were just despised for being traitors and sellouts. Publicans did not create or provide any value, all they did was take from their people and give it to the Govt.) 

In the  Sermon on the Mount,  Jesus gave very clear instructions. And they are unconditional instructions, toward unconditional love. They are instructions, and it is brilliantly and obviously simple. Very often, in fact most of the time, people create and fabricate all sorts of excuses; Platonist “forms” (LINK), what they call “doctrines” in order to justify not following the instructions; the very simple instructions. When people do not feel comfortable, they create -excuses-, or -doctrines- to justify keeping god’s blessings to themselves and excluding other people because they live in fear and are frankly, just plain greedy. Your Doctrines are excuses to not follow the instructions.

Jesus did not -ever- say anything remotely like “Feed the hungry, if they convert to that religion and doctrine you created”. Or, “Give drink to the thirsty if they get baptized, or let you have their resources.”  There are no ifs ands or buts about it. People who think they are supposed to get involved in all the little details are deluding themselves into playing god. Follow the instructions, that is the role. People who get into all the little details about doctrine, and look for any excuse they can find in some other part of scriptures to -justify not following the instructions- are playing god. But guess what, they are not kidding anyone. They live in fear.

If you do a word study for the Sermon on the Mount, go ahead and look at the word “if”.  Jesus uses the word not to justify conditions to make  someone comfortable, but to strengthen the instructions. In other words,  you do not use the word “if”, to determine your obedience to the  instructions, you use if to reinforce them. “For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:  But if you forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.” 

Follow the instructions, all the details will work themselves out.. That is why Jesus said in this sermon “Judge not”;  Essentially, “you ain’t that smart”. That is why Jesus was so down on the Pharisees who he also mentioned in the Sermon. All through the New Testament Jesus just lambasted the Pharisees because they would petition the power (implicit violence and coercion) of the Roman Government to enforce their piety in the Jewish Community. Similar to the way some Christian factions today try to use the power (implicit violence and coercion) of the US Government to force others into paying for things they may not believe in, to enforce lifestyles, or make judgement calls on other people they know very little about in order to justify untoward policy, exclusion, or prejudice. Both the right wing and left wing Christians get into this Pharisaic practice in different ways. The Founders of the US were so smart for not allowing the establishment of any one religion so it could dominate the others… so smart.

right out fucking loud, you're a dog

 

“Unless your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven.” -Jesus 

Jesus seems to always speak to the “I”, never to the “we”. The titles of the sections are such as “Jesus spoke to the Multitudes”, but when he spoke, he spoke to the individual, because he wanted people to take individual responsibility for their actions. This is another reason doctrines are dangerous, because they get people into groupthink, which, because of our flawed nature becomes “us vs. them”, and it becomes an “external authority”, not the authority of your heart, your “I-ness” that Jesus speaks to.  

Groupthink creates a lazy atmosphere, where people can defer their responsibility to the “greater good” determined by the tricksters. That is why Pharisaic groups get so much power, because they create Platonist “ideals” or “forms” (different Plato link) they are able to convince the people they have tricked into following them to conform to. These ideals and forms are -not real- and do not reflect  -what is-  in objective reality. These forms and ideals are  only imaginations from the minds of people who use religion and politics to control others. The right wing christans want to control everyone’s body.. which is -really- bizarre, how the HECK did they come up with that?.. and the left wing christians think somehow the government is going to magically begin doing the work Jesus instructed for the Church. Each of these factions are OUT OF THEIR MINDS in delusions. They have an imagination that is not matched by the reality of the Planet we live on or human nature. -CRAZY-. It is NOT the role of government to do the work of the Church, and it is also not to judge people’s lives or control their bodies. If the people who think they are supposed to spend their time getting the govts. to do god’s work just went out and obeyed Jesus there would not be any more hungry, thirsty, etc.. Bad priorities, bad individual choices. Some people never learn.

That is why Jesus’ instructions are so simple, because you do not know what you do not know, but you do know when someone is hungry, thirsty, sick, hard working, honest, etc.. Things you can see are what they are, and you do not know what you do not know, so just follow the instructions and quit trying to think you can manage the details.. follow instructions and judge not, because you ain’t that smart.  Your doctrines are excuses to not follow instructions, and that’s just you being scared. Let the details you are so worried about work themselves out. Jesus also spoke about your worry.

“Take therefore no thought for the next day: for the next day shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.” -Jesus

It is not a part of the instructions to worry about the details of other people’s lives, or what they do with their money or whatever else. Your business is to follow the instructions, love unconditionally, and don’t worry about the details, mind your own business. All you can see is what is on your radar screen, and your technology is limited to your own event horizon. Mind your own business. You simply do not know what you do not know. Focus on the immense value that -you- provide. You have no control over what others think, and you have -zero- to do with it. When you are conscious, one of your thoughts is infinitely more powerful than others as those thoughts relate to you, and vice-versa. Other people are going to have their own thoughts. When you make a judgment call that takes you outside the realm of unconditional love, well.. that is your fear, you’re scared, don’t inflict your fear on the lives of others because you can’t handle not being in control. You are not in control of anything but you.. so quit kidding yourself and get out of the way of the universe. This thing is happening with or without your blessing.

On a personal note, I do not define myself as a Christian, because what I think is not in line with Western Doctrinal Christianity. This being said, I love Jesus. I am grateful for his life and his work. I may not believe all the “right”  things, or the “Fundamentals” as people call them, but I also do not want to think about what my life would be like without that ability to have thoughts, and to recognize my heart, or “I-ness”, my consciousness, and the utter responsibility  that comes with it.

From what I can tell, Jesus was all about that.

Yesterday’s post about depressing moving and the joy of surprise
Today’s post is my 28th NaBloPoMo post

Lentils represent possibility and optimism

Lentils are really beautiful. They are so good. Each one is a world.

Lentils are so good, they are really beautiful. Each one is a world

Yesterday’s post about the dream you had

Lentils represent possibility and optimism

Today’s post is my 24th NaBloPoMo post

We fought for you until you woke up

This is a dream you had, and then it came true

We were in the same position you were in, and then we were telling you just like someone told us, that’s all. You knew the truth, and you slowly internalized it. Then, you heard it one more time and you acted on it. It’s never easy for anyone to admit being hoodwinked their whole life. We were ready for you, and since we were not partisan and political, we never said “I told you so”, because you were the next link in the chain to break free. Everyone was looking forward to your efforts and we were not going to ruin that by being spiteful and arrogant. Someone told us once, too. Then we told you.

The work you did was amazing, and it helped change everything and they thanked you for telling them, and for doing what you did to wake them up.

your beautiful, awkward epiphany.

i'm glad you had a good time at the mall.... but.

they thanked you for telling them and doing what you did to wake them up

 

Today’s post is my 23rd NaBloPoMo post

Yesterdays post about Black Friday

Black Friday is for Stupid People who Suck

Oh my gosh, how awful. I have not watched the news today but I wonder how many people got trampled. What a lot of embarrassing weirdness about our “culture”.

They are not relevant until they wait in line overnight to buy shit they don’t need, with borrowed fake money that they don’t really have, from some offshore private bank, owned by people who have utter contempt for us. Then, the day after the day they are supposed to be thankful for Family, they abandon them to buy them garbage, so all they can afford to feed them is genetically mutated food. America, you are a giant clown in space

Shop till you drop, or till you drop someone else.

What if our lives were about something really good instead?

Americans used to -make things- and disseminate them all over the world through business, and I’m not talking about weapons.The nature of Human life is to create.

Do you realize Santa hates you if you don’t conform?Santa hates you and he's a fat bastardHe took a really cool season, with all kinds of cool stories, and turned it into an expensive fiasco that helps prop up the lying media and the war machine.

Hanging around the house with Family all day telling cool stories with really great values should be enough. How wonderful. That sounds really lovely.
peace cost less Peace is cheaper than Santa

This was yesterday’s post about Thanksgiving. It was a nice day

Today’s post is my 22nd NaBloPoMo post

This was Thanksgiving 2012

I am thankful that Native American people were not decimated, because they have knowledge that was colonized out of Europe nearly 3000 years before Europeans built the ships they used to get here. There was a time when all of humanity had a balanced approach to life on Earth. With the rise of controlled agriculture and monotheism, came the rise of homogenization. This spread from the Fertile Crescent, into Europe and the rest of the world. Later, once European culture had been completely wiped out and replaced with an approach to life that separates humans from Earth and views our home as an enemy to be conquered and subjugated, it spread to North America and attempted to do the same here. Fortunately, thankfully, it failed. Now we have much to learn from the Native people of North America about living in balance. They can help us remember things buried deep within our DNA that tie us to the Earth and Sky. It is not ideological, it’s just what it is. We are humans and we might be able to remember who we are if we work at it.

it's the nature of consciousness to continue

Humans are so beautiful when we are at out best, and we accomplish amazing things, because it is the nature of consciousness to continue. Consciousness manifests in Individuals, each Individual is tied to Superconsciousness. This is a relationship of balance, because it is within each of us that we find the connection to Superconsciousness. We are basically good, not evil. We do not need forgiveness for being born, we were not born separate from anything. We are good. We choose health and peace and prosperity every  chance we can when we are honest with ourselves. In a non-subjugated world we would be free to implement every solution that would further our consciousness and our connection to the source Superconsciousness. These are Universal Laws that supersede the Law of Man. The Law of Man is only enforceable with fear and violence; threats, coercion, forced extortion of wealth and value from others. Universal Law needs no enforcement, because it simply is.

This sort of knowledge has been hidden from people, because for centuries the people who control others do not want people to realize how special we all are, they prefer us to be ignorant and docile and unaware, so we are easily controlled. There is a big waking-up happening, that is why there is a huge false information campaign happening about over-population, because the people who are freaked out if they are not in control want to depopulate Earth because they realize there are too many of us to control. There is enough for everyone, scarcity is a fabrication, a means of control, and a regulation. The giant organizations who say they want to end hunger and starvation are actually the Corporations who are poisoning the food and using genetic mutation to make these things they create and sell as though it is food incompatible with our base energy. those things they make for your ingestion lower your vibration.

I made this graphic, and I use it for my “logo”. The Wings represent Superconsciousness, the Star represents Individual Consciousness, and the Heart represents Practice.

wings, star and heart

-balance-

We are happy when we are creating. We can’t help it. That is how humans manifest consciousness, and integrate reality, by creating. It is who we are. People who are afraid of themselves ridicule and belittle artists and creative people because our culture was extricated from us over centuries, and it is all they know, to fear themselves and their incredible, beautiful and creative minds. If a lot of these things you are reading are ringing true for you it is because it is ringing your DNA. It “resonates” with you. If you ask for knowledge you need to come to you, it will come to you. That is the Law, you are already connected to that knowledge.

Here is a neat little short story I wrote related to this subject.

A recent blog post along the same lines, too.

John Trudell is giving a brief explanation of what I attempted to relay in the first paragraph (Thank you John Trudell)

Today’s post is my 21st NaBloPoMo post

Yesterday’s post on Peace in the Middle East via Detroit.

Peace is possible

Semitic kidsI grew up in Southeastern Michigan, near Detroit. Actually, right on the City Limits line. I was actually born in the City of Detroit. I am very proud of that. I get more proud of that each year.

One of the things I remember is learning a really cool lesson from someone who was teaching me about immigration. I do not remember who it is now. It was a long time ago.

What they told me is people come to the United States for many reasons. Sometimes they come because they are sick and tired of the fighting where they live. Sometimes people move to the US and purposely live in proximity to other groups of people who, if they were back in their homeland would be their enemies. They do this because they are familiar with them, and they love them, and they want to be at peace with them. In the US, they have the option of peace. Sometimes maybe they do not like them, but at least they do not have to be at war with them. Which is not a bad decision to make. I mean, be realistic here, you cannot like everyone. I never met anyone who likes everyone.

Of course this is an irony, considering the fact that the US is a Military Empire that pretty much seems to love war, and loves to create strife among people in other parts of the world if it can mean some quick profits for one of our Government’s Corporate Sponsors. But the point is, peace is possible. People actually move here to be away from war, even though this Country seems to be in love with it.

I also lived right next door to another pretty cool town, this town has a high concentration of Jewish people, there are lots of Jewish Americans and Israeli immigrants. Growing populations in that part of the Country were the Arab and Persian populations, as well as the Palestinians. Plenty of Muslim people were moving into that town with so many Jewish people. In fact, I remember riding my bike passed one intersection all the time. There was a Mosque on one side of the street and a Temple on the other. How nice for them, they do not have to be at war. I am sure they have disagreements about what is happening in the place that is “back home” for them, but they live here, and they are not interested in bringing that war to the US. They moved here so they could live among each other in peace. I can totally get down with that.

I’m way beyond grateful to have the influence of so many people from all over the world, it is awe inspiring to be so lucky. You have no idea how often I just stop what I am doing and reflect on all the far out people I have met from all over the world, and from right here in the US, and just relish in my good fortune. I’m a lucky f@&#in’ Pollack.

I wish for the people in the Middle East that they can learn some lessons from my neighbors and friends, their American Cousins, I really do, I’m not kidding. They would be so much better for it. I know I am.

Have some nice Holidays.

PEACE.

I am doing one post per day for the month of November, hopefully. Inspired by NaBloPoMo.

This is post #20

You should subscribe to this blog to get excerpts from my Novel and other good stuff.

The High School of Life

Larry had a dirty mind, a beautiful dirty mind

Larry had a dirty mind and a good brain

Larry Fisher. Larry Fisher was a Chef at a restaurant where I worked. Larry familiarized me with a concept about life, which as far as I know, he initiated. “The High School of Life”. “It’s the High School of Life Rob”.

Larry asked everyone, every day, several times a day, whether there was life after High School. I think Larry was convinced that life indeed ended after High School, and that everything after High School was some kind of transcended, or possibly distended extension of High School. Poor thing. Larry was easily one of the funniest and smartest people I knew up to that point, and without a doubt one of the most memorable since. After all I am writing about him 25 years later, and he is the only person whose actual name I am using in this essay (Get it? essay.. High School.. Ok). He was matriculating his High School career with grace and humor. I was at that Restaurant right after I had pretty much put the cap on my baseball efforts. This thing about Larry could go on longer, but some things are not for the Public Way.

When I was a kid the only thing I ever thought about doing when I grew up is baseball. I was weird for baseball. I had rituals and routines and habits and drills and all that. 1000 swings at imaginary baseballs every single day, wrist rollers, hand-eye coordination exercises, just every single device and technique I could learn. Listening to the creepy, nosy lady next-door complain about me minding my own business in my Dad’s back yard swinging my baseball bat over and over and over. “He’ll be out there all day long swinging that stupid baseball bat”. I could not imagine how cool it would be to actually, one day, get a paycheck for doing this thing I got lost in every chance I could. That all changed when I reached the point when I was actually playing 9 inning games, 5 or 6 days per week. I was not getting paid, not yet, but I was playing as much baseball as some guys who were getting paid, and some of the players on my team and on opposing teams were getting paychecks, they had contracts.

It was one of those rare moments in life where you are climbing a rock face, you are all by yourself, you can see the sweat dripping off your arms, and you are pulling your eye level to that point where you can just barely see over the peak of that rock at the very top and kind of get a feel for what a future on the other side of that will look like and what it will feel like to set the next set of goals. There are two things about playing 9 innings of baseball, every single day when you are in your early 20’s. 1. It’s really, seriously, very difficult even when you are young, especially when you have a day job. 2. You realize that you are looking down a road in life that you’ve always thought you wanted to take, just as you are also that point in your life where so many other things in life are opening up to you.

Here’s the thing about my situation. I was an unsigned player. I never got paid, I was not quite good enough, according to the business offices, to get paid. I was however, good enough to pay with paid players on certain types of teams. Basically, I was recognized, or “approved”. Today, the common term for a guy like this is “unsigned free-agent”. I was respected enough that the teams could trust their players with me. They knew I was not going to get them hurt, and that I was not going to make mistakes. Just the insurance on even a low-level minor leaguer or something is an investment. It’s money, it’s business. They have strict rules about anything having to do with your safety.

there is nothing in life except baseball

weird for baseball

That’s really important, there is a big difference between mistakes and errors. Everyone makes errors. You boot it, or some part of your body has a memory lapse and the ball slips out of your hand, or just some other thing happens that is the result of a physical malfunction. But not everyone makes mistakes. I never made mistakes. A mistake is when you do the wrong thing, and when you do the wrong thing, that’s when people are at risk. If another player is expecting you to do the task that is expected in a given situation, and it is the correct task, and it is what is expected by everyone out there, and then you do something else, people may not be ready to adjust, and that is when crazy stuff happens.

It also costs more games than errors. For sure, 100%. Doing the wrong thing the right way, is 100% worse than doing the right thing the wrong way. It is possible to look really beautiful and athletic and artistic while doing the wrong thing and costing a run or costing a game. It is also possible to look ridiculous while doing the right thing the wrong way. The latter is far more acceptable. It’s better to look stupid doing the right thing wrong, than to look brilliant doing the wrong thing right. I never made mistakes, I rarely made errors, and I had the tools. I just did not have the grind in me to be able to play 9 innings a game, every day.

By the end of games I would be thinking about other things, and wondering what other things I could be doing, and if I might be missing something in life by being on a ball field all the time. When you have thoughts like that, it’s time to make a decision.

I was out there pretty much by myself. I had a cool boss who understood my schedule needs, yes of course I had a day job, and some of the guys I played with didn’t because they had contracts. It was a difficult and very competitive situation and it was more than I could do alone. When you see those ballplayers on TV talking about their families and how they could not have done it without them, it’s the truth. You can’t make it out there on your own. It’s nothing personal, but it’s basically your tough luck if you don’t have a support network like a family.

Well, what in the world is the point, and what does this have to do with the “High School of Life”? Lots, it has a lot to do with it because it reminds me of “the talk”. Basically, you have to be good enough. “The talk” is what you get when you meet a scout who is going to introduce to you to the game; to the Association, which are terms used for the MLB.

“It’s not because somebody knows somebody or because you can afford it, or because someone from the Lodge made a phone call, or gave some sorry excuse for a Coach 50$ to play you, it’s because you’re good enough to be here, and the moment you are not good enough to be here, you are not going to be here.” This is the Private Sector, it’s not the Public High School where some tenured, bitter loser is making decisions, you need to make sure that every single time you get off the field with those people, you forget everything they tell you and remember everything you know.” You’re a ballplayer, and they are working in the Public Sector because they are not good enough to be around guys like you.” They wanted to be you but they couldn’t hack it. “You have to remember to forget everything they tell you, and remember to remember who you are and what we tell you.”

That is the talk. That is the talk I got. There are variations of the talk, for different situations, but essentially, that’s it in a nutshell. It’s a business talk. It’s a Private Sector vs. Public Sector talk.

Aaaaand it’s true. That is why Larry Fisher was so smart, because he knew. He knew that some people graduated and some people didn’t. Some people are actually capable and competent, and some people are dependent and political. It’s true. I can tell you with complete confidence that the guys playing in the show are all there because they are good enough to be there. It is super hard to get to where they are. If there were better players, they would be there. That’s why scouts go all over the Planet, looking for the best players from almost every continent. Because it’s a BUSINESS, it is money and resources. They invest so much money and they are not going to waste it being political or picking favorites or being racist, or whatever, they’re just not.

“If you can play, we’ll find you.”

I am doing a blog post per day all month, hopefully. Inspired by NaPoBloMo. This will be a good motivation for me to format some more ebooks. This is post #16

Make it happen: Do what you love

notes and organization, using pens and paper. remember pens and paper?

The picture is a link to a note about notes

Make it happen. When you don’t give up you can draw good things to yourself. I did not give up, but mostly, what happened is I kept writing. And I used my allotted research time (mini-day) to research writing opportunities and locate groups of creative people in online groups and organizations.  In the process of seeking out illustrators for a graphic novel I am working on, outside of Stellar Gas, and potentially one of my short stories called “The Story of Seaweed” I found a situation where I can make money editing graphic novels and comic books. I am not going to call it a job, because it is my essence.  It is play for me to do things like this.. and it just could become the case that I have found the illustrators I am looking for right in this group.

For my email subscribers, expect your copy of a free chapter by the end of the day today,  Tuesday. See, just because the scary Circus is in town does not mean everything has to be bad. 

Just Combine Halloween and Election Day and get it over with (link)

I am doing a blog post per day all month… hopefully.  Inspired by NaBloPoMo. This will be a good motivation for me to format more ebooks, cause oh yeah.. I got ‘em baby. This is post #6. Can i do it?

Plato’s Republic: Treatise of paid-off phony intellectual bottom feeders

Plato is wrong about probably everything

What a bad meme to spread! Plato had a lot of things wrong. Who would cast a spell like this? What’s his interest in maintaining the ostracism of honest people?

How about this instead?:

“Those who are able to see beyond the shadows and lies of their culture are honest, valuable people who lay the foundation for the New Civilization”

That makes more sense to me. Spread -that- meme around so it takes hold, what the hell were people thinking back then? how could they do this to us? 

That is a better meme to lay down for Western Civilization, instead of the “forms” and the “ideals” that Plato used to provide talentless bureaucracies the tools they use to control us to this day. Plato was the first paid-off phony intellectual.

In many cultures, before the West did this thing it is doing, people who see things more clearly are not cast-aways who are considered weirdos, they are special people who are heard in order to see things from different perspectives. They are Shaman, healers, and clarions. Sometimes they are even chosen to become Chiefs and leaders. At the very least, their input is integrated into the whole, and considered valuable.

Plato’s Republic is the foundation in the West for Bureaucratic Authoritarianism. It is the start of ostracizing realism and the root of discontent and alienation. The Republic separates people from themselves and their communities, and implores a dependence on external constructs that are usually foisted via violence by people who do not provide any work or innovation to the equation. 

Another option for this photo might be:The REpublic, By Plato

“Those who are able to see beyond the shadows and lies of their culture will never be understood, let alone believed, by the masses. And don’t worry talentless bureaucrats who make your living fleecing hard-working, valuable people. I’m writing a book called “The Republic” and it will ensure easy living for your ilk for at least a couple of millenia.”

Plato knew who doled out the free tax dollars. So like the economists and pundits of today, writing treatises that justify that system is good job security. Never mind innovation or solutions, unless of course they are exploited to continue to support the talentless political class and their flack machine.  And writing them in a language that is understandable by the people who have a certain level of education, but who are not inclined to critical thinking or original thought is a special talent. That malleable majority of the population is crucial to the maintenance of easy living for the political class and its tentacles.

At some point you have to ask yourself for honesty with yourself. Just ask yourself three questions before you lie down to sleep. Don’t be scared. Just ask: “Can I be honest with myself? Then ask: Am I doing anything to change things, really?, or am I just maintaining a broken cart that is ultimately doing more damage and harm than good?” Then: “At this point wouldn’t it be a net gain if we just started over?”

Internet movie database review regarding Plato and Aristotle, where a scriptwriter got it backwards.

More on starting over: (Links)

Breakfast means “break-fast” and it is the most important meal of the day, because you wake up.  (Breaking the two-party stranglehold)

You’re going to have to sacrifice more and suffer; tighten your belt. Just don’t pay attention to our ever-expanding gut that you go into debt for you stupid sucker.  (Getting power into your own hands)

I am doing a blog post per day all month, hopefully. Inspired by NaBloPoMo.  This is post #1.

Good MORNING!! Why my vote means more than yours

image of an election ballot, with more names than just the Republican and Democrat Parties, but also the Greens, the Libertarians, the Constution Party, and even Rosann Barr's Peace and Freedom Party

The Democrats have at least figured out not to waste money on me by sending me their junk mail.. I wish the Republicans would.. [corny trumpet sound effects: waaahh waaahh wahhh waaaaaahhh]. Every day I leave a note for the mail clown not to leave me political mail, and every day he does not read it. What am I going to do with that bozo?

I am pretty happy to see more people getting off the two-party bandwagon. It is not  easy, but it seems like people are finally figuring out that we are going to have to make a break from this. The thing is, as long as things are kind of difficult right now, we are getting accustomed to difficulty, then why not just make the break? And as long as we are having to fix everything, let’s just start right from scratch.  Breakfast is the most important meal of the day, after all. It makes sense that it’s in the morning, BECAUSE  YOU WAKE UP .. thank you very much

It is a really nice day here in Michigan where I am located. It’s hard for me to remember right now that our Govt. has ended Habeas Corpus, passed indefinite detention (and that they are using it), that “innocent until proven guilty” is a thing of the past. Our government, more than ever, for the last 12 years has accelerated the process toward becoming an arbitrary, lawless institution ruled by the whims of egoists. There are two completely different sets of laws for the fierce minority of 560 or so that we elect to rule us, than for the voluminous mass of 350 million who have become their subjects. Why do we tolerate them again?  Personally, I find it essentially irrational to be loyal to people who lie to me and treat me like shit. So do you.  Stop hitting yourself.

Look, at this point, it does not matter very much which non-two-party candidate you vote for. Just do it. You know you want to. Don’t fall for the games.

You know you want to. Follow your heart.

I am  writing-in a Candidate, not only because I really love the idea behind the Prime Law Amendment to the Constitution that she promotes, but because Michigan would not cooperate with her attempt to get on the ballot. Another “small government” Republican waving the broken magic wand of bureaucracy, and creating problems where none exist.

And don’t talk some crazy shit to me about how it is a “wasted vote”.  It’s my vote, it’s not your vote. People did not die for my right to vote so you could berate me because I will not vote for candidates who do not believe in the essential rights of Individuals, who unilaterally strike down Habeas Corpus and the right of innocence until proven guilty, and who have zero interest in self-determination for all people, but rather super-determination for a permanent, essentially non-elected ruling class.   MY VOTE MEANS MORE THAN YOURS if you are the one supporting that.

What visage do you engage and what engages your visage. (tumblr.)

What visage do you engage, and what engages your visage?

look.. carefully

click image

The American Mind: Political Prisoner (3,148 Words)

There are two classes in the United States, the political class and the rest of us
In the United States, the Republicans give our money to people who don’t need it, and the Democrats give it to people who don’t know what they’re doing.
By Robert Run (3,148 Words)–Click here for the ebook  99 cents

You, the working taxpayer, you pay for our politicians first-class privilege and treatment while you become subject to second-class status.  Pretty cool huh?