The New Word to Describe the Life of a Writer

conundrumnal: The state of being in a persistent paradox; A situation presenting a consistent conundrum

American Politicians  spend too much time raising money. They don’t have time to make good policy, or to care how it affects us.

If I want to spend more time writing, I am going to have to figure out how to sell my book, but if I spend my time selling it, I won’t have time to write. One of the things I like to do is make up new words. There are a few in my book. Today I want to introduce you to the word conundrumnal, because this problem of having to spend time selling books and not being able to write them is conundrumnal. I’m not saying this is original thought, but I don’t see that word in use. Certainly not in dictionaries.

war and vegetables a chronicle of the last gas station book cover

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My book is now in the Premium Catalogue at Smashwords, which means I can officially stop calling myself a Writer and start calling myself an Author if I feel like it. It might be a little pretentious,  but probably not presumptuous. It would be pretentious to call myself an author if I started referring to myself as such before at least selling a thousand books. You get the point though. I wrote a book, seventy two thousand plus words.

Below is a list of ways people all over the world can get my book if they find clicking the link above to be too easy. I am intrigued by this. What a great system Smashwords made. Technically, pretty much everyone on Earth can get my book now. What if they did? Then I could spend more time writing.

Kobo powers the ebook stores of multiple ebook retailers around the world.  Simply by distributing to Kobo via Smashwords, your books may also reach WH Smith in the UK, FNAC in France and Portugal, Livraria Cultura in Brazil, Angus & Robertson Bookworld in Australia, Bookworld in Australia, Indigo in Canada, Collins in Australia, Feltrinelli in Italy, bol.com in the Netherlands, Paper Plus in New Zealand, Play in Great Britain, Rakuten in Japan, Buy.com (now Rakuten) in the US, PriceMinister in France, Crossword and WHSmith in India, Eason & Son, Ltd in Ireland, Mondadori in Italy, The Paper Plus Group in New Zealand, National Book Store in the Philippines, Pick ‘N Pay in South Africa, La Central in Spain, Dogan in Turkey, participating Booksellers Association Stores in the UK, and participating American Booksellers Association stores in the US, and Orbile in Mexico (Orbile is a partnership between two large Mexican book retailers, Porrúa and Gandhi).

Inktera operates retail site Inktera.com and powers multiple apps across iOS and Google Play including Athanatos, Book Bronco, Caffeine Nights, Cricket Books, Digital Pretium, Digital Turbine eBooks, EverAfter, IndieReader, Inktera Books, MediaRewards, Morgan Rice, Oasis eBooks, OneClique, TribBooks, Versent Books, and EverAfter (app for romance); and operates Android ebook store apps for Cricket Wireless and Asus.

Baker & Taylor operates Blio, an ebook store and also operates Axis360, a major supplier of ebook checkout systems to public libraries.

Gardners, also mentioned above, powers hundreds of small white label ebook stores; operates Hive.co.uk which powers ecommerce operations for hundreds of physical stores; operates Askews & Holts, a large supplier of ebooks to public libraries in the UK and other countries; and operates VLeBooks which powers ebook checkout systems for academic libraries.

John Lennon, purposefulness and consciousness in decision making

I derived the title for my first book War and Vegetables from an interview with John Lennon and Paul McCartney, where the interviewer was asking them questions about youth culture, and what, if any good they thought they could bring to the youth of their era. At some point during the third revision I was searching the internet for music, just trying to relax an overstimulated mind and maybe find some inspiration. I was listening to Beatles songs that are somewhat rare, like demos and outtakes.

 

My first thought about the poignancy of the interview in relation to the themes in my book was that it was serendipitous and some kind of cosmic coincidence. I realized that this is always a theme, in and for any generation. Many people try to be conscious about what’s important, and what, if any good they might do. There is nothing serendipitous about it. We all think too much, and wouldn’t it be a lovely world if we could all settle our heads with more music and humor, and other good things. The original, working title for this book was ‘Stellar Gas’.

You can find the entire, very much worth the listen Lennon and McCartney interview here: http://j.mp/rr-w-v

Also on Soundcloud

This is an excerpt:

Interviewer: Let’s stick to the young people, and to the areas that you think are most fruitful to try to help in. I mean, again, I asked before where you thought young people were going and you said maybe there’ll be a reaction to what they have now. How does this relate to the real world, as you see it, to issues of war and peace and family and country?
John Lennon: All issues are relative. So it relates like that. It’s all just relative to each other… War… and vegetables… It’s all just relative, you know. So there’s relativity and absolute, and that’s how it relates.
Paul McCartney: That’s great Johnny.
Interviewer: That’s kind of hard though, for some people, to interpret you.
John Lennon: Well, if they can’t interpret it, maybe they will later, or come to their own conclusions, but that’s the way I think it is.

I hope you’ll visit the Book Website, which is different than the link above, and subscribe to updates. As soon as I have 50 orders I am going to send out a sample chapter.

This is the way I guess I have to do it.

Last year I did the NaNoWriMo challenge and wrote 50,000+ words of a novel. There were nights when it was easy peasy and there were nights where it was like trying the get wet sand out of a soda bottle at the beach, but I did it.

This year the idea is to get the damn thing done. I have to revise, edit, format and just get the thing out there. That is what it is about this year.

I continued writing the book after November. It ;s up to about 70K words now. I’ve never done this before and I learned a lot so far and I suppose I’ll continue to learn more. I think it seems kind of pathetic to start a book and not finish for a whole year, but I guess everyone is different. I see these authors who have literally dozens of books they’ve written and they do several a year. I cannot imagine what that’s like.. that is just not how it happens for me.. It took me about 43 years to even start my first one (this one), because I was 7 when I knew some day I’d write a book. I feel like I needed 50 years of experience to have something to write about.. you know?

Well.. here it comes. Wish me luck!!

The NaNoWriMo Poster

Politics and other crimes

If you hate politics, you’ll love Hank

Goodreads review for Hank Rally, President 50

Hank Rally on Goodreads  (<- if you click that)

Robert Run on Goodreads

by Robert Run (Goodreads Author), Juan McGowen (Illustrator)

Deborah Blair‘s review
May 14

5 of 5 stars

Read in May, 2013

The episodic graphic novel, Hank Rally – President 50 – Happy Do’Ya’Merica! – Volume 1 – Issue 00 Primer – is a wonderful foundational beginning for what is surely to be a fun and inspirational graphic series that will entertain us as we revision where our country and the world is headed. Written by Robert Run, illustrated by Juan McGowen – this work is a courageous venture that is looking for a well deserved boost with a Kickstarter campaign – you can learn more and become a backer by going to : http://kck.st/17fJoa5. Even though Robert gave me the eBook to review without pledging, after reading it I gladly went to Kickstater and made a pledge!

At a time when our literature, theater, film and lives can become so shallow and predictable – Robert Run has revived political/inspiration art in the spirit of Clifford Odets, “Waiting For Lefty,” – the Living Theater’s Money Tower, and the many works of Peter Schumann’s Bread and Puppet Theater in both inspiring readers and providing a form to help us think and discuss issues that need to be out in the open.

In this first issue we learn that Hank is a disappointed, but ultimately willing “winner” in the 2031 Presidential Lottery that was instituted after the election of 2020. We learn of the subtle but effective changes the citizens of the USA made in terms of energy, corporations, taxes and other areas of life that basically brought sanity to an insane system. Hank hears that he has been chosen in the national Presidential draw – rather like Jury Duty selection – -he chooses to serve as a civic duty. We are given a taste of what we will be learning in future installments.

For some who are not accustomed to this art form – and for those who have passed over the Graphics Novel form –
it may take some getting used to – but after a short learning curve you’ll be glad that you did. And for those who love the Graphic Novel – and want as a nation, and globally to move past an economic, industrial, corporate, political paradigm that is killing us – this Primer issue of Hank Rally will provide many nods of agreement and a humorous form to share with friends.

I welcomed the opportunity that author and creator, Robert Run has given me to preview the Primer issue of the Hank Rally – President 50 series. Senator Joseph McCarthy and his henchmen gutted many of our political thinkers, professors, writers, playwrights, directors and actors during the witch hunts of the fifties. The assassinations of the Kennedy’s, Martin Luther King Jr., and Malcolm X, and corporate and political corruption gutted much of our meaningful literature and performance art forms. Our hearts and dreams have been broken and many don’t even know why – -Our American story needs revitalizing with new, enduring archetypes – – this Graphic work is making a good contribution in the right direction. I highly recommend that you support this venture at Kickstarter — you can help start a story that feeds our hearts and helps us chuckle as we dream a new dream. Http://kck.st/17fJoa5. Even if the funding goal for printing and for subsequent episodes is not met, you will receive an eBook if you pledge.

Christians kill with doctrine instead of simply following Jesus’ instructions

“For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? do not even the publicans do the same? And if you salute your brothers only, what do you more than others? do not even the publicans think they are special?” -Jesus 

(Publicans were the ultimate hated people in Jewish culture at that time, because the only job they could get was collecting taxes for the Romans, who were afraid to enter the militantly independent Jewish communities. Publicans were just despised for being traitors and sellouts. Publicans did not create or provide any value, all they did was take from their people and give it to the Govt.) 

In the  Sermon on the Mount,  Jesus gave very clear instructions. And they are unconditional instructions, toward unconditional love. They are instructions, and it is brilliantly and obviously simple. Very often, in fact most of the time, people create and fabricate all sorts of excuses; Platonist “forms” (LINK), what they call “doctrines” in order to justify not following the instructions; the very simple instructions. When people do not feel comfortable, they create -excuses-, or -doctrines- to justify keeping god’s blessings to themselves and excluding other people because they live in fear and are frankly, just plain greedy. Your Doctrines are excuses to not follow the instructions.

Jesus did not -ever- say anything remotely like “Feed the hungry, if they convert to that religion and doctrine you created”. Or, “Give drink to the thirsty if they get baptized, or let you have their resources.”  There are no ifs ands or buts about it. People who think they are supposed to get involved in all the little details are deluding themselves into playing god. Follow the instructions, that is the role. People who get into all the little details about doctrine, and look for any excuse they can find in some other part of scriptures to -justify not following the instructions- are playing god. But guess what, they are not kidding anyone. They live in fear.

If you do a word study for the Sermon on the Mount, go ahead and look at the word “if”.  Jesus uses the word not to justify conditions to make  someone comfortable, but to strengthen the instructions. In other words,  you do not use the word “if”, to determine your obedience to the  instructions, you use if to reinforce them. “For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:  But if you forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.” 

Follow the instructions, all the details will work themselves out.. That is why Jesus said in this sermon “Judge not”;  Essentially, “you ain’t that smart”. That is why Jesus was so down on the Pharisees who he also mentioned in the Sermon. All through the New Testament Jesus just lambasted the Pharisees because they would petition the power (implicit violence and coercion) of the Roman Government to enforce their piety in the Jewish Community. Similar to the way some Christian factions today try to use the power (implicit violence and coercion) of the US Government to force others into paying for things they may not believe in, to enforce lifestyles, or make judgement calls on other people they know very little about in order to justify untoward policy, exclusion, or prejudice. Both the right wing and left wing Christians get into this Pharisaic practice in different ways. The Founders of the US were so smart for not allowing the establishment of any one religion so it could dominate the others… so smart.

right out fucking loud, you're a dog

 

“Unless your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven.” -Jesus 

Jesus seems to always speak to the “I”, never to the “we”. The titles of the sections are such as “Jesus spoke to the Multitudes”, but when he spoke, he spoke to the individual, because he wanted people to take individual responsibility for their actions. This is another reason doctrines are dangerous, because they get people into groupthink, which, because of our flawed nature becomes “us vs. them”, and it becomes an “external authority”, not the authority of your heart, your “I-ness” that Jesus speaks to.  

Groupthink creates a lazy atmosphere, where people can defer their responsibility to the “greater good” determined by the tricksters. That is why Pharisaic groups get so much power, because they create Platonist “ideals” or “forms” (different Plato link) they are able to convince the people they have tricked into following them to conform to. These ideals and forms are -not real- and do not reflect  -what is-  in objective reality. These forms and ideals are  only imaginations from the minds of people who use religion and politics to control others. The right wing christans want to control everyone’s body.. which is -really- bizarre, how the HECK did they come up with that?.. and the left wing christians think somehow the government is going to magically begin doing the work Jesus instructed for the Church. Each of these factions are OUT OF THEIR MINDS in delusions. They have an imagination that is not matched by the reality of the Planet we live on or human nature. -CRAZY-. It is NOT the role of government to do the work of the Church, and it is also not to judge people’s lives or control their bodies. If the people who think they are supposed to spend their time getting the govts. to do god’s work just went out and obeyed Jesus there would not be any more hungry, thirsty, etc.. Bad priorities, bad individual choices. Some people never learn.

That is why Jesus’ instructions are so simple, because you do not know what you do not know, but you do know when someone is hungry, thirsty, sick, hard working, honest, etc.. Things you can see are what they are, and you do not know what you do not know, so just follow the instructions and quit trying to think you can manage the details.. follow instructions and judge not, because you ain’t that smart.  Your doctrines are excuses to not follow instructions, and that’s just you being scared. Let the details you are so worried about work themselves out. Jesus also spoke about your worry.

“Take therefore no thought for the next day: for the next day shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.” -Jesus

It is not a part of the instructions to worry about the details of other people’s lives, or what they do with their money or whatever else. Your business is to follow the instructions, love unconditionally, and don’t worry about the details, mind your own business. All you can see is what is on your radar screen, and your technology is limited to your own event horizon. Mind your own business. You simply do not know what you do not know. Focus on the immense value that -you- provide. You have no control over what others think, and you have -zero- to do with it. When you are conscious, one of your thoughts is infinitely more powerful than others as those thoughts relate to you, and vice-versa. Other people are going to have their own thoughts. When you make a judgment call that takes you outside the realm of unconditional love, well.. that is your fear, you’re scared, don’t inflict your fear on the lives of others because you can’t handle not being in control. You are not in control of anything but you.. so quit kidding yourself and get out of the way of the universe. This thing is happening with or without your blessing.

On a personal note, I do not define myself as a Christian, because what I think is not in line with Western Doctrinal Christianity. This being said, I love Jesus. I am grateful for his life and his work. I may not believe all the “right”  things, or the “Fundamentals” as people call them, but I also do not want to think about what my life would be like without that ability to have thoughts, and to recognize my heart, or “I-ness”, my consciousness, and the utter responsibility  that comes with it.

From what I can tell, Jesus was all about that.

Yesterday’s post about depressing moving and the joy of surprise
Today’s post is my 28th NaBloPoMo post